Back on Track!

These last two weeks I did not do very good on eating or exercising. I didn't make any menus, and when I went shopping, I wasn't thinking about me. I was thinking about meals that Bobby could take to work, or that I could feed the kids quickly. Neither of which was healthy enough to give me the right kind of energy. Two weeks ago, I was preparing for a trip with my hubby so I cleaned (with lots of help from Nicole) the house, and that was a lot of energy. When I left, I put it into my head that I wanted to keep eating healthy. That a vacation is no excuse to eat poorly. For the most part I did good. There was a salad at 2 out of the 3 lunches/dinners we ate. I had fruit at each breakfast, and there was very little junk food. There was, however, an emergency Panda Express dinner where I ate way too much and way too crappy. That was enough to throw me off. Last week, I was feeling particularly exhausted, so I didn't even do any cleaning, which Bobby took upon himself, and that didn't do anything good for our marriage. I went into a slight depression, which made me not want to do anything or eat anything good. Yesterday, I woke up to breakfast in bed, and Bobby made me lunch, and Mom made us dinner. Everything was pretty healthy so I got back some of the energy I had been missing. Today, I woke up and, after breakfast, started cleaning. Nothing too strenuous, but enough that it made me want to do a little more. So long as I drink 2 cups of water at very regular intervals, I feel better, and I have energy.

I think I lost sight for a short while of what this was all about for me. This isn't just to lose weight and win money. This is to get my body in order and prepared for this child that's going to come. I need to keep the bigger picture in mind.

I saw the video last night of our SFFD in the park. You don't ever see yourself fully in the mirror. It's the 360 degree view from a video camera that really lets you know what you look like. That was more motivation for me.

Anyway, my rambling is getting weird now. Maybe next post I'll write about the kids.

My secret's not a secret anymore

Ever since April 13th, when I found out that I was finally pregnant, I've tried to be very good about what I eat. My last few posts are evidence of that. I found that my desire to lose weight and be healthy was strong, but my desire to give this baby the best chance I can was even stronger. And my nausea was even stronger than that. I have so many reasons to finally eat right and exercise that it doesn't even seem hard. I've been feeling nauseous almost every hour of every day, so much so that there is no food that I have found that I actually want to eat. I look at salad and feel sick. I look at cookies and feel sick. Since I know I have to eat, my choice becomes so much easier. The only downside is that I'm also feeling so exhausted that I haven't been doing much of anything, much less exercising.

Now, I don't actually have much hope of winning this competition, but I do have a lot of hope that this is the perfect opportunity to get healthier and in shape. Whether or not I even lose 1 pound. I'm excited to see and hear everyone else's stories about what they are doing. This is such a great idea.

By the way, my starting weight for the competition is 235.2 lbs. Only 75.2 lbs to go!