Doing OK so far

So I didn't go all gung-ho like Rachel did and completely change everything. I'm not that strong yet. I think if I were only going on a time-limit diet and exercise regime then I could probably change everything. But I need to really change me before I can change my body, and that is a small step at a time process.

I'm gonna let you all in on a little secret. I don't like being fat. *gasp!* And what's worse? I have a hard time liking the me under the fat. I'm fairly certain that losing all the weight isn't going to magically change how I feel about me, so I'm going a different approach than normal. I'm actually a lot like Rachel in that I'm an all or none type person. But in this respect, when it comes to changing so much, I know I have to take it slow if it's going to make a lasting difference.

The first thing I know I needed to change was all the junk food I've been eating. I have no problem getting good foods in me. I love fresh salads and whole grain bread. The problem is I love to stuff myself with processed sugars and empty calories just a little bit more.

So, the one thing I'm trying to work on this week is to seriously cut my limit of sugary things. I know for sure that I can't cut it out completely. I would die. maybe. In the last few days of trying this out, I've done ok. I went from 100% to maybe 50%. Even if that 50% is still 600-700 calories each day, it's way better than 1200-1400. (Just random numbers. I have no idea how many calories I eat from junk.)

One of the ways I've found to help with not eating sugar, is to drink a glass of water every time I crave sweets. Then I try to find something that will fill me up a lot more than cookies. and I don't mean food. I eat mostly because I'm bored and I think that my time is not that valuable. Now I'm trying to do something whenever I want sugar. I clean a room. I fold some laundry. I plan my next few days of chores or brainstorm craft ideas.

I've found that when I not only cancel out the bad influences in my life, the crap that makes me feel worthless, and add productive activities to my day, I feel like I'm worth the good feelings that good food brings.

It's a slow process. But I can feel it working.